c-section tension

Dawn Brown of Knees Up Mother Brown had a great post this week that really got me thinking.

She’s been advised that she may need to have a c-section if her baby’s position doesn’t change, and (understandably) has a few concerns:

“1) I hate the idea of a spinal/ edipural and not being able to feel my legs/lower body. This is probably my worst fear and it’s the one that gives me nightmares. I know if I have to have a c-section then it’s inevitable but I just hate the thought of it

2) I really don’t like the idea of not being able to sit up, cuddle and breastfeed the new baby as soon as it’s been born. Within minutes of Zara being born we were sat having cuddles and it was lovely, I don’t want the new baby to be wheeled away and I have to lie there being sewn up again etc before I see it again.

3) I really don’t like the idea of having to rely on midwives, nurses etc having to come and help me to lift the baby etc I’m really independent and I want to be capable of going and picking up the baby if it’s crying

4) I worry about how long it will take to heal afterwards, especially when I will also have a 15 month old toddler as well to look after, if I can’t lift anything or can’t drive then I’m going to be pretty much useless and it will drive me insane.”

I’m 100% behind Dawn here.

While of course all anyone cares about is a happy and healthy baby, the delivery method is such an emotional one for many mums to be.

Even before looking into it much, I knew I didn’t want an elective c-section as I kind of thought it was cheating.  In my eyes, it was like skipping the trek and getting dropped to Everest’s summit by helicopter.

Bear in mind I have no medical reasons whatsoever to even consider a caesarean and I don’t feel that other women are ‘cheating’ if they have one, for whatever reason.  For me though, it wouldn’t have felt right.

This is not to say that I didn’t always harbour hopes that I would be told a c-section was necessary and I’d get to bypass a long and painful natural birth on doctors orders – in my mind it’s different if you have to have one! I guess like attempting to climb Everest and only stopping because you broke your legs, not because you got tired or couldn’t be bothered with the trek.

However the more I discover about the (serious) operation the more I am running scared from a caesar.

For the reasons Dawn lists, and others:

My mum’s experience:

My mum had five kids – four ‘normal and one caesarean (that would be me).  Many, many, MANY times over the years she told my sisters and I how much worse a c-section was.

Much of this could be attributed to the fact that 1) it was 30 years ago and they are probably done differently these days and 2) it was an emergency Caesar so the scar (massive, muscle severing) was a lot bigger than you would find in an elective c-section.

She stressed to us how hard it was not being able to cough or sneeze properly for weeks, no being able to pick anything up easily (including baby) and even once she had been given the all clear it took ages for her to relax around anything that made her use that part of her body.

She also stressed how much longer the recovery was for a c-section compared with vaginal birth.  This however could have something to do with me being a late ‘surprise’ baby and her being a lot older than when she gave birth to my siblings.

The epidural:

Not so much being numb from the waist down that bothers me, more the needle into my spine, ugh – have long held a fear (probably unfounded) that if they slip Ill be paralysed for life.

Catheter:

Enough said.

The ‘repair’:

Stitches or staples, I don’t want either on my belly, thanks.  At least if I need to get them from a natural birth they’ll be out of sight, out of mind (or so I tell myself).

Regardless of these fears, I have plenty regarding a ‘normal’ birth as well!  Best not to think about it all really and just stay focused on the end prize – whatever happens it will be worth it.

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